I hate my life.

I don’t think anyone realises how much of an insecurity I have with people staring at me and laughing at me like I’m some kind of freak show. I went into PE with a massive smile on my face and my confidence was at a high. I came out of PE with my confidence at a low and I was so upset.

It killed me inside to see a whole group of people make fun of the person being paired up with me and giving me these looks like I’m some kind of hideous beast numerous times. I’m sorry if I’m not skinny, pretty or slutty enough for you. 

My friends and teachers tell me to ignore them but how can you possibly ignore something that happens each and every time. It killed me even more inside knowing they saw me crying and they still decided to sit there and laugh. Congratulations on your winning in life award, you shall go far.

I guess this is my punishment for living in such a fucked up world.

I entered high school thinking there would be no more bullying, I was wrong. I’m just as depressed as I was in primary school. Thank you very much, negativity has once again struck me and it shall stay that way.

Kind regards,
Dennise.